My Birth Story

We originally planned to have a vaginal birth, but as most things happen in life… my plans go out the window and God has other plans.

We knew we’d be able to have a vaginal birth as long as Baby A was head down by time of delivery. As we progressed further into the 3rd trimester, baby A was still breech (she was breech the entire pregnancy). And baby B was transverse (sideways). 

All along, although I held the intention of a vaginal birth, I was open to however babies wanted to come, with their health and safety being our ultimate priority. 

At a certain point during 3rd trimester, maybe around 34 weeks, I started to feel that babies wanted to come through the sunroof and I came to peace and acceptance with having a C section. Truly intuiting they weren’t going to change position at that point. 

In addition to that with my sprained hips, all signs were pointing towards a C section. 

I began to focus my mind on all the positives of having a c section birth. 

After much consideration, reflection, and support from our doulas we ended up deciding to do a planned C section, verses going into labor and then having a section. 

Ironically, if you told me this would have been the outcome from the beginning, I would have said no way!

We decided to plan/schedule our C section because we felt we could have a more calm, serene experience while getting all of our preferences met for our C section birth. 

Yes, you can still have a beautiful birth via c section. 

Now time to pick the date! 

At first I felt so strange about choosing our babies birthdays.

Jack and I decided to have a ceremony, calling in our babies energies and asking them to guide us in this choice. 

My entire pregnancy was very much spent in sync with these girls, including the processes of choosing their names which was very much guided by them and channeled through me. 

So we put a bunch of dates ranging from 37-38ish weeks into a spinner, called in our babies for guidance and set the intention that whichever date came up first 3x would be their birthday. 

Second spin was May 1st and that date came up again and again on the following consecutive spins. 

It was clear this was their date. 

When I looked into the spiritual meaning of this date, it was validated for us. 

And the dr working that day is who I envisioned delivering them via c section. 

The night before their birth, Jack took me to get my hair done and then we went on our final date together before babies made their way earthside.

The night before their birth, as I lay down, I began getting some back aches, and cramping and wondered if I’d make it until morning. (This wasn’t that abnormal,

As I’ve had cramping from start of 3rd trimester which is normal for twin pregnancy) but something felt like it was shifting. 

Morning came and when I went into pre-op room, they asked me if I was feeling contractions as it appeared on the monitors that I was having them. 

The nurse that was assigned to me was kind of a nightmare. She was a bit cold and apparently was back today after not working for 7 years. 😩

She was struggling to work the computer/montitors, complaining about other staff verbally to me and honestly I was picking up on her anxiety and it was making me a little coocoo. 

Thankfully, I was able to keep it together with the support of Jack and my doula. 

I kept repeating aloud  “because this is going so badly means the surgery and delivery will go smoothly and amazing!” 😂

My dr and a midwife in training (who my dr asked if she could shadow in advance) came in to check on us before surgery. 

Again my dr walked me through the process and thank god the midwife in training (who was a long time nurse)was able to take over a bit and figure out some things my nurse was struggling with. Bless her!! 

This was the second time my dr walked me through everything that was about to happen with the surgery. She calmed me, validated my anxiety and emotions and told me she was not expecting any complications. 

I think it’s also important to note, we had educated ourselves on all the possible interventions, including c sections. We did this within the context of our birthing class. 

I will say, being educated about all the various ways the birth could go, felt empowering and I couldn’t imagine having an emergency c section and not knowing what was happening. I was so grateful we planned it. For me as a person, I liked having the knowledge and understanding of what was going on. 

Then the anesthesiologist came in and she was amazing!! She also walked me through what was about to happen with the spinal tap and what I may experience and feel. 

It was almost time to be wheeled into the OR. 

I said goodbye briefly to Jack, as I had to go to OR alone for first 20-30 min to get my spinal and be prepped for surgery before my doula and Jack were allowed in. (Again I already knew all of this and was totally prepped in advanced).

The spinal tap went well, although I was scared. And emotions were running high,

I felt extremely alert and at peace. 

As soon as spinal was administered things happen fast. 

There was a team of people who all had a specific job, shaving me, cleaning my belly, etc. there were 3 nurses, 2 anesthesiologists who were at my head and 1 specifically who was so attentive to me and walking me through things. 

They conducted a quick series of tests to ensure spinal was working. 

Then my dr and midwife in training came in. 

And Jack and my doula came back in shortly after. 

Jack set up the music we picked. And I felt the presence of divine protection of my guides in each corner of the room. 

I said a prayer as the music calling in the Holy Spirit came on. 

As I was prepped, I could feel a lot of tugging and sensations but no pain. 

Jack stayed by my side, looking into my eyes as our girls were being born. 

The song we chose for their birth was a kundalini mantra, a mediation/mantra I had done all through pregnancy which is for protection.

I chose this because the girls know this mantra and I could feel they’d be guided by the song from my womb into the world. 

Emmy baby A was delivered at 10:52am. 5.12 lbs. As soon as she came out the baby nurses knew to give her to me (assuming everything was okay) to do skin to skin. 

As soon as I held her she looked at me and her face and essence felt so familiar to me, like I’ve known her for some time. 

As I was holding Emmy, Indy was being delivered at 10:54am at 6.1 lbs. I could see Indy coming into the world as I held her sister, as they dropped the drape. 

It was overwhelming in the best way possible. 

Indy had a little phlegm to cough up and once she was good, her nurse brought her over to Jack for skin to skin. 

After a couple minutes, I asked to switch babies with Jack so I could do skin to skin with Indy and Jack could with Emmy. 

As soon as I held Indy, I also fell in love and she latched to my breast almost immediately. 

Our girls were perfect! I thanked the whole team. I was so relieved and all was right with our world and family. 

My Dr came over to me after surgery was complete to recap everything with me. 

It was a sweet moment as she held my hand and said “we did it!” And one thing that sticks out was her telling me she believed I was in early labor.

This felt good as it further validated their birthdate being the true day they wanted to come earthside.

They wheeled all of us to post op room and girls were put on me again for skin to skin and both latched to my breasts.

I was tandem feeding my sweet babies. A total moment of letting nature take its course. It happened with total ease and zero effort. It was a dream. 

My doula then showed me my 2 placentas which fused together into the shape of a heart. 

Jack and I stared in awe at our beautiful children. 

After some time Jack brought my mom in to meet her first granddaughters! 

Minus some hiccups with the nurse in the beginning, everything went so beautifully.

We had the best care in the hospital and were blessed to have gone home with our healthy girls only 4 short days after their birth.